#academic hell

[bird-everyday]

anyways i submitted my final project earlier today and only have one more essay due and then it is done, i will have a masters yay

wao it's been a long year and have found I'm a bit lonely and im back in the fuckin dating apps gahhhh when will someone from here fall in love with my cryptic posting and sweep me off my feet... twilrs my hair, etc. gahhh ignore me .

... unless 👀

oh this js also to say i woll have more free time soon so the birds should return promptly

[reckless-lambert]

Btw exam results will come in 3 days, I can be free to do whatever

[jynersq]

trying so hard not to be upset but my family are all enjoying the beach while for the past 2-3 days i’ve been stuck inside working on paper revisions/responding to peer reviewer comments because this stupid journal demands a turnaround of ten (10) days and, because i am supposed to be on vacation, i didn’t even see their email until i only had 6 days left. i’m so sad. this is the one week out of every year i get to go on vacation with my family and instead of painting w my mom and sitting on the beach and reading like i hoped id be doing im working on these stupid, unpaid revisions. and then these academic journals have the audacity to charge us thousands of dollars to publish our work.

and like. could my phd advisor do it for me? technically yeah, but it wouldn’t be right. it’s my paper, which i have done 99% the work for, which makes it my responsibility. if i were the only author on this paper id genuinely tell the journal to kick rocks but i don’t want to cause unnecessary drama for my advisor.

[literatureismyentirepersonality]

In theory (usually after some figure of critical authority, having spent ten years shut in a cupboard studying the text has explained the thing to me) I love experimental art and literature. I love clever books, books that I have to work for and then realise Oh My God this is amazing, (e.g. Ulysses, or Woolf or Hyatt) but in practice so much experimental literature and art is just inane crap that leaves me wondering how far up their own arse the author was when writing it and just how much money did they pay the publisher/what social advantage did they trade on to get this mindless drivel published. Claire-Louise Bennet has nice prose, Pond has some interesting contemplative moments and I'm sure when an academic tells me what to think I will suddenly Perceive Her Genius but right now I've read a few interviews and thought good god you actually published your meandering diary as a book, babe this could have been a series of tumblr posts and I would have enjoyed it more

[disappointingcabbage]

I think having to take organic chemistry classes while hating chemistry might make depression worse actually fuck this shit

[sylvanium]

You know you have a supportive and very understanding friend when...

(pov: instead of writing a thesis, you send a catchy song about ADHD to your friend, saying it reminds you of her and the dynamics she has with her husband (he is the ADHD one); and she absolutely loves the song and sends you back “just a little something to mentally support you in your eternal thesis/diploma battle" - so you click the link and...)

...the song she sends to you is "I've No More Fucks To Give" (by Thomas Benjamin Wild Esq.) and she wishes you to get to this Point Of No Return because SHE KNOWS your life will be so much better when you get there.

I love her, your honor.

(And no, I’m still very far away from this point - I still give waaaay to many fucks about anything, really - but it’s nice to know your friend has faith you can do better than that. lol)

[danijaci]

Go crazy go stupid

[dreamingawayyour1ife]

[cowgrlcunt]

🍁

[disappointingcabbage]

Gotta escape this one like twice a week lmao

SAW TRAP write 1-2 paragraphs on a discussion post and respond to two of your classmates

[sylvanium]

I had a phone call in the morning due to a job application. I almost cried when I learned the interview for the job was scheduled on the same day as the state exam. I apologised and said I cannot come. And now, all my hopes of getting the job are crushed.

And just an hour ago, I read my opponent's opinion regarding my thesis. I was prepared for a very, very harsh review (because my thesis is *obviously* incomplete and lacks a lot of information)… And it seems like it's the opposite of what I have expected - just how? It's considered "very good"?? Excuse me, what???

In the end, I really did cry. Because I feel like I didn't deserve it I feel overwhelmed. (And I'm scared that some stupid little devil's voice in my head will start whispering about Ph.D. and that would be the end of me.)

[milk-lover]

Sobbing uncontrollably reading through a dissertation about the college experience of students with ADHD. It is like reading a report about my life that just says over and over "My experiences are real. My hardships are real. I am not lazy, I am not dumb. My struggles were not my fault, and they were not a moral failing. The failure was with the system, not with me."

Here's a line that got me in particular:

"Hotez et al.(2022) compared the health, academic, and non-academic capacities of a nationally representative sample of U.S. first-year college students with ADHD and without ADHD. Students with ADHD self-reported lower academic aspirations and more feelings of depression and overwhelm, ranking themselves lower in their general emotional health. The fact that students with ADHD scored in the highest 10th percentile for many non-academic traits, such as artistic ability, computer skills, creativity, public speaking, social confidence, self-understanding and understanding of others, compassion, and risk-tasking, suggests that this population has strengths that are frequently underappreciated in academia."

(the paper is a thesis called "Understanding the Collegiate Experience for Students With ADHD" by Gia Long, 2022)

[sobbing-org]

[sylvanium]

This is so wholesome.

I’m only missing one saying “me” vs. “the students trying to sneak books out of library”

Have some memes because I am once again suffering academically

Bonus:

[asteroid617]

Law school is fucking me up. Today was supposed to be a fun free day but I'm over here thinking myself into an early grave. Fuck.

[cherries-in-wine]

Relationships are great and all but have you ever been the favourite student of an extremely strict teacher with insanely high standards who hates literally everyone? Now that kind of academic validation makes me so gululguulululu